Full Moon in Virgo on Saturday

I'm a superstitious person. Always have been. The few times I've ignored my gut have ultimately turned out bad, may have taken some time but the worse came out of these situations.
I check my horoscope. I don't base my life around it but I check it. It does usually seem to be a day behind though.
I generally only pay attention to the good days, cause if it's bad I'll already know it and from that point on I'll force it to be better.
Our lives are more judged by the moon than any of us really want to give it credit for.

Choices

With everything completely backwards that's happened to me over the past 4 months, I've finally realized that the choices I have now to make are my own and mine alone. They always have been really but there have too many others to please with my choices and being the giving person I am, I always choose to pass on my personal happiness for another.

The people I choose to associate myself with are by my choice. The people I choose to give my time to are my choice. The foods I decide to eat, and the places I choose to frequent are my choice.

There is one person only in my life that I will pass my happiness on to and I hope that's an obvious one to all.

on the road

It's 3am cst... I have never been so bored on a trip. I've got a lot of time to do some thinking over the next four days... also there's little to no intelligent conversation, so I'll probably wish I was alone the entire time.
My uncle is currently driving and making me sick and super nervous. I didn't know any one person could ride that bumpy side thing in the road for so long... and they got mad at me for checking my phone while driving... at least I had an excuse.
Looks like I'll be in Dallas Friday! Yay, I get to make the stop @ the new Pizza Hut RSC. I'm looking forward meeting some people I talk to daily and seeing some old friends.
I am finding out that what I believed is true... I am the only adult in our caravan on this trip ;).

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i, love, you

3 very small words that pack a huge punch when used in the correct context.

I'm still not sure how i feel about these 3 words. Obviously spoken there should be the feeling behind it but again it does not take speaking words to feel an emotion.

love is an emotion that can take time to grow or be instantaneous. generally it's based on an individuals acceptance of a situation.

Love Mix - Up

Love Mix - Down

Sometimes you just know.

I have known immediately about 2 people total in my life how I would always feel. Surprisingly both of those individuals are too busy to take notice. One was a very long time ago and one pretty recent. Both of these people have brought out the crazy in me, but I believe that's a reason i feel so strongly. The most passionate and extreme emotions one can feel are for someone that can drive them to their extremes. Good & Bad. These relationships generally never last, and understandably so. When that much emotion is throw into such a small space it will generally destroy everything in it's path. But the ride is well worth the pain in the end.

One would think that by dating someone older you would gain some experience points in many of the standard aspects of dating & relationships. I have since found this to be very untrue. Not that I have dated many older men (older being 37+ seeing as how a 1o year differential is accepted as normal). Thus the 1 older man I've dated was awkward socially and a beyond terrible kisser. (maybe I should make this private ;) ) Maybe someone older doesn't necessarily have the experience.

Gaining experience is about opening yourself up to new challenges & changes right, being open to experimentation, allowing your boundaries to be broken down and accepting the fear that comes along with it and embracing it.

I seek experience, life, broken boundaries and above all else intense emotion.