my escape

I've always had an obsession and lust for food. It's actually my one of my strongest natural instincts, right behind that mothering instinct. My love affair with good food is not as long lived as I would like but I'll deal. It's been a refreshing do-over from my most recent relationship that the new man in my life is a foodie who likes to cook.
I've never really been OK with just anyone in my kitchen. I'm very protective of my kitchen space, it's always been mine and mine alone. There have been very very few I've let into that space. There has to be a balance in a kitchen, a flow, almost a beautiful dance in synchronized harmony. Ups and downs, turns and passes, all to insure the safety of course and most importantly to the outcome of a beautiful and tasty meal to enjoy with loved ones.
Nothing calms me more than a glass of wine in one hand and a knife in the other. (yes I know that sounds bad, but hopefully you get what I really mean)My kitchen is my escape from everyday life. So why should I let just anyone in? I don't, so those of you who I allow in my small haven are pretty damn special. I've allowed you to cross more than my personal boundaries and into my life. I've allowed you into my kitchen.

Full Moon in Virgo on Saturday

I'm a superstitious person. Always have been. The few times I've ignored my gut have ultimately turned out bad, may have taken some time but the worse came out of these situations.
I check my horoscope. I don't base my life around it but I check it. It does usually seem to be a day behind though.
I generally only pay attention to the good days, cause if it's bad I'll already know it and from that point on I'll force it to be better.
Our lives are more judged by the moon than any of us really want to give it credit for.

Choices

With everything completely backwards that's happened to me over the past 4 months, I've finally realized that the choices I have now to make are my own and mine alone. They always have been really but there have too many others to please with my choices and being the giving person I am, I always choose to pass on my personal happiness for another.

The people I choose to associate myself with are by my choice. The people I choose to give my time to are my choice. The foods I decide to eat, and the places I choose to frequent are my choice.

There is one person only in my life that I will pass my happiness on to and I hope that's an obvious one to all.

on the road

It's 3am cst... I have never been so bored on a trip. I've got a lot of time to do some thinking over the next four days... also there's little to no intelligent conversation, so I'll probably wish I was alone the entire time.
My uncle is currently driving and making me sick and super nervous. I didn't know any one person could ride that bumpy side thing in the road for so long... and they got mad at me for checking my phone while driving... at least I had an excuse.
Looks like I'll be in Dallas Friday! Yay, I get to make the stop @ the new Pizza Hut RSC. I'm looking forward meeting some people I talk to daily and seeing some old friends.
I am finding out that what I believed is true... I am the only adult in our caravan on this trip ;).

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i, love, you

3 very small words that pack a huge punch when used in the correct context.

I'm still not sure how i feel about these 3 words. Obviously spoken there should be the feeling behind it but again it does not take speaking words to feel an emotion.

love is an emotion that can take time to grow or be instantaneous. generally it's based on an individuals acceptance of a situation.

Love Mix - Up

Love Mix - Down